Monday, April 13, 2015

Lighten Your Backpack!

Edinburgh 
Take from the past that which belongs to tomorrow, and carry only that today!

It is not the burdens of today that cause me to be unhappy. It is the regrets of yesterday and the fear of tomorrow that robs me of today…that takes my living away. When will I stop allowing my body to sit still while my mind moves between yesterday and tomorrow? When will my mind, body and soul all be alive and living all at the same moment? TODAY!

Laugh more, watch more sunsets, walk in more forests, swim in more rivers, hug more and love more, feel more, become more than you ever thought possible.   Start having fun. No one said that to be holy we would have to be sad, poor or miserable. Jesus preached love and joy and peace. He never preached misery, unhappiness or stress. Joy is about having fun. Joy is about living, real living.   Do yourself a favor and start having some real fun.   Do something today for the sheer joy of doing it, not to accomplish anything, not to have an underlying motivation, not to get something in return, but something that is a gift for my soul.    Do something just for the fun of it.   Give yourself a soul gift and rather spend today doing nothing constructive, but having a wonderful, joyful time, than waste your day with living in yesterday or tomorrow.

All the emotional baggage that we carry today influences our future.   Take a little while to dig around in the past and find the good lessons that you learned. Lessons are only learned if something positive and good came out of it. A lesson was not learned if what we brought with us is mistrust, bitterness and fear. Only those good lessons belong to tomorrow and only that must be carried today. This way, our tomorrow is influenced positively by what we carry. And what we carry with us today is creating our tomorrow.   Make sure that we only carry good things.   Leave the bad things behind in the past, where they belong. 

Today we live!

EUGENE DE KOCK - The Strangest Parole! Where is he?

Friday, 10 April 2015

I have not read, I have STUDIED Anemari Jansen’s book called Sluipmoordenaar van die staat.  For those who have not researched, read or made an effort to learn about Eugene, then this is a good reference point.  Most of the book is taken from Anna van der Hoven’s evaluation of Eugene for the Court Case CC 226/94 and from the Amnesty Application written by Eugene de Kock to the then President, Thabo Mbeki, and from Eugene’s own manuscript.  The two books, A long Night’s Damage and A Human being Died that night are used as references.  There are a few interviews with people who worked with Eugene.  For me, the most enlightening aspect of the entire book is the words Eugene from his own manuscript.   These are his words and his emotions.  Through his own words, I have got to learn more about Eugene and my passion and motivation to see him freed, is even more important now.   I would estimate that there is less than 10% of the book that is original to the author.   I have over the years been somewhat led to believe that Piet Croucamp has been a visitor every month for the last 20 years.  According to the interview he has with Anemari Jansen, this is far from the truth.   

I will share the most devastating aspect of the entire story, written by Eugene himself.  I will leave you to place the understanding of what he has been though on your own, while mulling over the following words:

“Ek het klaarblyklik baie ernstige misdade begaan en moes maar my pak vat.  Ek het die verskriklike omstandighede in C-Max 31 maande lank verduur.   Toe ek vra waarom ek in C-Max geplaas is, is aan my gese dis omdat die sielkundiges met my wou eksperimenteer.  Mev. Helena du Toit, maatskaplike werker by die trunk in daardie tyd, het heirdie stelling bevestig.  
Ek is deurentyd emosioneel gemartel.  Hulle het deurnag ligte anngeskakel gehou of dit in my gesit laat skyn.  Daar was regdeur hierdie typd ‘n gehamer aan die seldeur.  Van die obervasieplatform bokant my sel was daar voortdurend ‘n gehamer en geraas.  Ek kon slegs ‘n uur per dag rondbeweeg – ek kon oefen in ‘n hok van 1 x 5 meter.  Daar is met my kos gepeuter.  Ek mag geen besoekers ontvang nie.  Ek was heeltemal geïsoleer". (pg 266).

For 31 months, Eugene saw no one and not once did he see the sun.  For me this is the most distressing aspect of what I have learned.  As he says, he understood that he had been forgotten by God and by people.  Once he was sent to C-Max in 1999, all Eugene’s police friends and “medevegters” finally stopped visiting and completely forgot about him.   These words that I share with you are the words that have broken my heart.   Do not even read page 310, because not only will your heart be broken, but you will be extremely angry at how he has been used and how his safety has been compromised for a little media attention.
Those who have also been implicated in the crimes that he has been punished for have no need to be concerned.  He has not named a single one of you.  He uses words like, “’n sekere persoon...” and so on.  If he has not named you now, he will never name you so please do not become a threat to his safety in an attempt to keep yourself out the shit.   He does, however, mention some of the people who gave him orders.  Those people are the ones who denied knowledge of him or the goings on at Vlakplaas.  Those people are the ones who will benefit from his continued incarceration or …. I cannot even say it.
This “parole” is anything “but”.  He has no access to internet or telephones.  His personal effects are still in his prison cell in Pretoria.  He needs urgent attention for degeneration of his eyesight.  His nearest and dearest have no contact with him.  I am extremely worried that he is not safe.  I have not heard that he is safe for almost two weeks.   Nor has anyone else.  At least when he was in prison, we knew where he was.   There is something very, very wrong.  I am extremely worried.  Please keep him in your prayers as well. 

Three Lines for a Life!

What will it say on yours?

A friend I have known for almost forever died last year from a heart attack.   That was sad.  But sadder still is that his life only took up three lines in the media when he died.  
Three little lines for a whole lifetime of living…And on his gravestone…
Name: xxx 
Date:1955 ---2014.   
How sad that a whole life was wasted. 
When I leave here I want to leave the world a little better than when I found it.  I want more than three lines in the media.  I want thousands of dashes between my year of birth and the year of my death.  I want to continue to LIVE every moment that I have, without letting one opportunity to live, or help, or encourage or to make beautiful pass me by.  Each morning I wake up and make a choice.  I can choose to live or choose to die.  I choose to live!  I want to be part of life right now and not just some nice words said once I am dead.   Strange how no one says kak things about the dead, but they can talk a lot of shit about you while you live.

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Si vis pacem, para bellum/Umhambi akadinwa zinduku/Fight for peace, prepare for war

Zero tolerance for hate 
We cannot allow superficial differences to develop amongst us, the people of this land, South Africa.  We can respect one another’s cultures, but not differences in skin colour, class, political differences or cliques in our ranks.  We must educate ourselves.  We must prepare ourselves and prepare the way to a united nation. We must conduct ourselves as though we have already won this ideal.  We need to be obedient to the needs and principles of our Constitution. 

We must love peace, but we must do so bravely and courageously. We cannot allow the violence of others to detract us from our drive to achieve the goal of a united nation.  There will be those who want to destroy us, who will try to stop our movement toward true reconciliation and peace. They will argue with us and not always treat us fairly, sometimes with the willing compliance of state authority.  We will have to learn to accept some injustices aimed at us, without ever giving up.  Regardless of whatever we create and what we do, we shall pass away, but our children and our children’s children will be left with the vacuum we caused because we did not stand up.  
Our legacy must be the end of hate and racism and the beginning of a new dawn where people are accountable.  This will be our precious mission.   Si vis pacem, para bellum.  Umhambi akadinwa zinduku.  Fight for peace - prepare for war.   It cannot be otherwise, because we are flesh from our flesh, blood from our blood and our very minds are filled with the same spirit which dominates us all!  No longer will we allow or wait for political parties to do things for us.  We, the people, need to do it for ourselves.  We need to make people that we voted into power accountable to us, the people.  How dare they enrich themselves by stirring up hatred between the races so that the money goes into their bank accounts and not into the pockets of the people!
We will fight for peace, but prepare for battle.

Friday, April 3, 2015

Cultural Differences in Children Are Not Based on Skin Colour


Plants only blossom where their roots are - Home !
All children grow up with stories.  But stories differ from culture to culture.  I want to share the stories that I grew up with.  Stories teach children about morals and values…about good and evil. 
In the rural areas, children are told fables and folklore stories that have been passed on orally from one generation to another.   In the cities, children are told fairy stories that are read to them from books.  There is a huge difference between the fairy stories told to children in the rural areas and those who were born and grew up in the cities.   This is about culture and culture does not have a colour.  I was brought up in our African culture but my skin is very light. So, go figure.
I do not remember ever having a book read to me.   The first fairy stories that the white folk grew up with were those I read myself after I had been taught to read.  The stories I heard as a child had nothing to do with Hansel and Gretel or Red Riding Hood.  Even the Noddy books only came into my world after I started reading.
Intsomi (oral folk tales) time was the time when the adults would tell the children stories.  I would like to share them with you as I heard them sitting around the fire after supper or around the table with the old coal stove going to keep us warm.  The stories were entertaining; the idioms always had a moral lesson.  Most of the stories did not have titles as they always revolved around Jakalashe and Umvolofu (the jackal and the wolf), so I am going to give the stories a title.  These stories and idioms that I learned as a child, shaped the way I see the world today.
Why the Rabbit has no Tail
One day it was decided that all animals would be given a tail.  The date and time was fixed.  On the day of the meeting to collect a tail, the rabbit was too busy and asked the monkey to get his tail for him.  In the scramble for tails at the meeting, the monkey forgot to collect a tail for his friend, the rabbit.  He came back only with a tail for himself.  And that is why the rabbit still has no tail today.  
Why dogs sniff under one another’s tails
One day it was decided that all dogs were to attend a meeting at the town hall to discuss the new laws regarding how puppies were to be brought up properly.  When the dogs got to the town hall, they took off their tails and hung them on the rack at the door.  They always did this as a sign of respect when they went to a meeting.   It was also a lot more comfortable to sit without a tail stuck on them. The meeting duly started.  Half way through the meeting, someone smelled smoke and started shouting, “Fire…fire…fire”.  With that, all the dogs got up and hurried to get out of the town hall.  When they got to the tail rack, there was much confusion and haste.  They just grabbed the first tail they could reach or get to in the scramble to get out of the burning building.     That is why today you will still see dogs smelling under each other’s tails.  They are looking to find the tail that belongs to them.
Jakalashe and Umvolofu and the barrel of butter
Jackal and Wolf were walking along the road when they came across a cart full of barrels of butter.  Wolf asked Jackal if they should not perhaps pinch one.  Jackal said, “Why not?  You go and lie in the road and play dead.  The farmer will pick you up and put you on the cart.  Then you roll a barrel off while I hide in the grass”. 
Of Wolf ran to lie in the road.  The farmer stopped next to him and climbed down from the cart.  He prodded Wolf a few times with his stick and when Wolf did not move, the farmer put him in the cart.  He was going to take him home and skin him and use him as a carpet in front of the fire.   After a little while, Wolf got up and pushed a barrel of butter off the cart.
“Let’s eat it.  I can’t wait”, said Wolf.
Jackal said, “We can’t eat this now.  It is not ready to be eaten.  It has to be a few days old otherwise it will make you really sick”.
They hid the barrel and went home.  On the second day, as Wolf was lying in the sun, dreaming of the taste of butter, he saw Jackal going past.  He asked Jackal where he was going and that they should go and eat the butter.
“I can’t be bothered right now”, said Jackal. “I am in a big hurry.  My wife is giving birth to a baby boy and I have to find the midwife.  “What are you going to call him?” asked Wolf.  “Just Begun”, said Jackal, as he ambled along, his stomach so full of butter he could hardly walk.
Wolf waited a few more days and when he saw Jackal again he asked him about the butter.  Jackal was really upset.  “You won’t believe it Wolf, but my wife is having another child”. 
“What is his name going to be?” Wolf asked.  Wolf thought that the first child had a very strange name. 
“His name will be First Half”, answered Jackal.
The next day when Jackal passed by Wolf’s door, he said that another son had been born and that they were going to call the third son, Second Half.
The following day it was the same thing all over, but the name of the next son was, All Gone.
Early the next morning Jackal was at Wolf’s house as he had promised and the two set out for the butter keg.  They came to the barrel, opened it and found that all the butter was gone.
“Oh, no!” groaned Jackal.
“Oh, no!” groaned Wolf.
“You ate it!” said Jackal.
“No, you ate it!” said Wolf.
“I’ll beat you”, said Jackal.
“I’ll murder you”, said Wolf.
Wolf was bigger and stronger than Jackal so if they had to fight, then Jackal would lose.  “Wait, my friend”, he begged.  “Let us go and lie in the sun and see whose mouth drips butter.  Then we will know for sure who ate all the butter”.  Wolf agreed.
So they lay in the sun and before long, Wolf was fast asleep.  Quietly Jackal got up, scraped the last bit of butter from the bottom of the barrel and rubbed it on Wolf’s mouth.   Then he lay down again.  When they woke up Jackal said, “My mouth is clean”. 
“Oh, no”, said Wolf, “I’m the buttery one.”
“Then we know where the trouble lies”, said Jackal, picking up a stick to hit Wolf. 
“I must have eaten the butter in my sleep, because I don’t remember a thing about it”, cried Wolf.
Jackal had beaten the Wolf again.
 There are many, many stories about how the Jackal outwits the Wolf.  My favourite stories by far were those of Jakalashe and Umvolofu.  Our stories were real, they told of real things, real animals and real nature.  We did not have make-believe houses made of sweets and cookies, or small people called Noddy and policemen called Big Ears. 
Idioms also taught us a lot.  Here are a few that have stuck in my head after all these years: 
Foxes smell their own holes. (Don’t fart and blame someone else)
A baboon cannot see its own backside. (Don’t judge other people; you are also at fault)
You can’t teach a crap to walk straight. (A stubborn person will not change)
A single earthworm in the ground thinks it is the ground. (If you are the only one who thinks like that you are probably wrong)
A bird does not built with other birds’ feathers. (Depend on yourself, not on others)
The cat sleeps in the fireplace. (So poor that there is no fire)
You do not get tired if you carry your sticks. (Be prepared, take precautions and plan ahead)
Carry it in your chest.  (It is a secret).
How many children have had the pleasure of being supported by an imbeleko on the back of a woman – to feel the gentle rocking as she moves about her business? How many children had the opportunity of bathing in a river, or sliding down home-made mud slides and swinging off monkey ropes to fall, laughing and screaming into the river?  How many children could walk around barefoot without whinging at every stick, stone or thorn that they tramped on?  How many children could play with clay from the river and fashion oxen and wagons from the clay, decorated only with burned out pieces of matches? How many children had the freedom to run in the fields, without a care in the world for danger that comes from other humans?  We only had to be careful of snakes.  How many children belong to and are the responsibility of an entire village and not just to the parents? How many children had their first hidings from the headman for throwing stones at cars driven by white folk?  How many children only got new clothes to wear on Christmas day?  How many children have cut the grass for making a roof?   How many children were given the responsibility to see that the cows were herded home before dark?  How many children knew about procreation, life and death at an early age?  How many children were allowed the freedom to run and explore the magnificence of the forests, the rivers, the beaches and the sea?  How many children would know about the ceremonies and customs of the people?  How many children have had the comfort of sleeping in the same round room with the whole family, knowing they are completely safe from harm? How many children today, are brought up to respect their elders?  How many are brought up with Ubuntu?  Why did the Western World have to corrupt what was once a beautiful world?  How many children were given African names, other than the names you are given by your parents?  How many children have warmed their bare feet in still hot cow dung?  How many children know about first aid herbs to tend to bites, stings and cuts?
I am a South African.  My name is Udadewethu, my isiduko is Tshesi, and I am an Mpondo.  My upbringing in Engcobo, Mqanduli and Esikaleni  has made me who I am today.  Umaf’evuka, nje ngenyanga!

So tell me – who had the better cultural upbringing?  Those in esi’lalini or those in edolophini?

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Destroying monuments and celebrating Black History Month

CELEBRATION OF BLACK HISTORY MONTH 
The stupidity of attempting to destroy history and create a new one that fits the order of the day!
Morgan Freeman has a logical answer to the white interviewer.   
Black History Month, you find … ?”
“Ridiculous,” Freeman replied.
“Why?” a clearly stunned Wallace retorted.
“You’re going to relegate my history to a month?” asked Freeman. “What do you do with yours? Which month is white history month? No, come on, tell me?”
“Well, I’m Jewish,” responded Wallace. (of course Jewish is Jewish and it does not have a colour???)
Freeman continued, “Okay. Which month is Jewish history month?”
“There isn’t one,” replied Wallace.
“Oh. Oh, why not? Do you want one?” asked Morgan Freeman in response.
Wallace said “No.”
“I don’t either,” explained Freeman. “I don’t want a Black History Month. Black history is American history.”

Then, Freeman stood his ground and explained how to really stop racism in America:

Stop talking about it. I’m going to stop calling you a white man, and I’m going to ask you to stop calling me a black man,” said Freeman. “I know you as Mike Wallace. You know me as Morgan Freeman."

Why would we say, "I know this black man, Joseph..." or "I know this white man, Henry..."  or "I know this coloured man, James...".    There is no need for the pre-fix of the word "black" or "white" or "coloured" when talking about someone.  That someone is Joseph, Henry or James.  Let us leave the description of the skin colour out of the equation.   
South Africa is the only country I know, in which children still describe people according to  their colour ie. "Mommy, there's a black man at the door" or "Mama, umlungu ukhona".   It is our responsibility to teach our children to become colour blind and to stop blaming the past on their own failures. 

One of a thousand reasons why I am not a communist!

Czech pilots in Britain during WW11
During WW11 hundreds of Czech pilots fought for the British against the Nazis. 

After the war, the communists seized power in Czechoslovakia and jailed all the pilots who returned home.  They were afraid that the pilots would fight against them for freedom.  

In 1951 Czechoslovak airmen were released from the labour camps.  However, they remained outcasts for life.   In 1991 they were rehabilitated (meaning that they could come back into society and treated as human beings) and recognised for their wartime service.   

How sad for these men and their families!  Why did Britain not do something to help them?   Why did the world allow this?  Those who think communism is the way forward - beware!    Learn from history and don't repeat the same mistakes.