Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Maybe Dying is Like an Orgasm

My life is short and in a blink of an eye it is gone. This was brought home to me as an absolute truth when I was diagnosed with leukemia. I have learned so much. I learned that I have to really live, every moment of every day. If it is a shit day, I can look forward to a better day. When it is a better day, I really appreciate it because life is like a pendulum. It does not stay good forever either.

I will not lie down and say woe is me. I will live, love, shock, swear, laugh cry, and dance while I am alive. I will live until I die. I will face this monster of an illness and I will tame it. I will turn the leukemia and breast cancer from a monster into a chameleon. I will live without fear. I face this and live with courage and boldness. I live daringly, feeling every emotion and doing what I like and what I want when I can.

Let me give thanks for the love and companionship of those I love. It is far more important for me to love than to be loved. Let me be grateful for the miracle of life. Out of my inner pain, may I learn to touch my fellow creatures with compassion, empathy and understanding. Let me do the things I need to do or say what I need to say to everyone right now. I will not let one day go by that I say that I did not live, that I let something slide by, that I did not make someone else smile, that I did not take the time to hug someone or tell them how much I love them.

May I have the courage to live fully so that when I return to Source, I can say, “I really lived!” I no longer fear death but look forward to it with eager anticipation for the next adventure of a lifetime. And who knows? Maybe dying is as pleasant as an orgasm.